the typical new years entry

it's been an extremely long and tedious year... filled with memories i would rather not keep. on the bright side, it wasn't as bad as previous years, if that would even count as a bright side. hopefully this downfall will stop and lift itself in this next decade because

i just really need it to.
Goodbye 2009; you will not be missed.

New years resolution:
- eat healthier. again (because I forgot to towards the end of last year)
- organize
- spend more time with the little girlfriends you have
- be spontaneous. again.
- focus

i guess overall, i wish to have my old self back. the one that didn't worry about this or that and was stressing just about every moment in her life. if it wasn't over this, it was over that and if those were resolved, something else found it's way to give me anxiety of this that. it's been a struggle and i want to leave it all behind me. burden me no more.